What I’m drawn to….


What I’m drawn to….

When I wrote that I’m undereducated it wasn’t actually meant to be a ”self” put down…what I meant was that there are so many subjects I’d love to have been able to study more formally…Anthropology..philosophy… photography… French and Spanish..drawing and painting..to name but a few. But there just isn’t enough time in the day…
I wasn’t  particularly academic at school. I was hopeless at maths and science, and  ended up with the notion that I really wasn’t very intelligent, and it took me many years to dissolve that misconception. Now I  realise that my intelligence is just expressed in a particular way. I feel very tuned into atmospheres, body language, people’s energy, feelings, thoughts..major/minor moods…sounds shapes, form, colour, texture, light and shadows…words, inflections memories…
Back in the day, I used to play piano quite a lot. I still think it’s the most fantastic instrument, with such a variety of tonalities and resonances in the range of sound. I still find Bach 2 part inventions really fascinating. There are so many ways to play/interpret the phrases.
I’m  tuned into sound in such a way that I find it almost impossible to focus on anything if there are other sounds going on in the same environment. I feel overwhelmed if I’m in a restaurant and the background music is played at a volume where I can’t hear myself think, and I get drained if I spend time in crowds. I like stillness. Incense. These days I like silence, or the wind blowing outside my room at night.